yulialovecraft

I found Midlothian, i have my tickets booked, i re-read my father's diary and now i am scared, he too felt the urge to visit this place, he too felt it calling, near his death, does the fact it now calls me mean i too am closer to my father than i know? if i go, will i too be found by the strings that made him take his life?

I am scared beyond comprehension, yet i still booked my train tickets, it's strange i had never heard of Midlothian and to find out it is in Scotland came as a surpise, i was expecting it to be a foreign country, but no it's just Scotland, how can something that fills me with such terror be so close?

I go next week and even the thought of it chills me to the bone, but i must go, i feel it.